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I have been thinking about myself, how I have been a Mother. I was there when they began to move inside me. The feeling of butterflies, the happiness in finding out I was going to become a Mom. For nine months I waited plus 2 weeks, all were exactly 2 weeks late. Hey, guess what you're a Mom, now what are you going to do?

I brought my son home, at sixteen a baby myself. I learned the hard way and missed a lot of what it meant to be a Mom to my son. Yet I tried to pull myself out of the wrong way to bring up a child. With the help of family, I made it to where I am today. Meeting my husband, he accepting my son as his own - life was good. Then once again, I gave birth to my daughter, still an adjustment. By then my son was four, getting himself dressed, potty trained. Well, what a young four year old can do anyway.

But, my little daughter came in this world another little one to take care of. I am still growing up myself, wanting to sleep hahahahaha. It took a little time, life began to go smoothly once again. You know by the time my third child came along I finally got it right. This was going to be our last, and it was a girl. My first daughter was a Daddy's girl, so this one was going to be mine, and she was. I also had the chance to not give her a bottle to take to bed. One of my goals, because the others always had ear infections. Do you remember those? Guess what? She still had the ear infections, in fact she had to have tubes in her ears. Go figure hahaha a Mom tries her best, it is all she can do.

I grow to enjoy being a Mother, sometimes not what you expect. I was pregnant four times, one I miscarried. I have also lost a daughter, my first, yes Daddy's Little Girl. What a way to get your heart ripped out, some of you may know the feeling. Then again hoping some of you have never felt it before. You just quite never get over the loss, yet, you do manage to go on. She lingers in my thoughts on special days, her birth being one. In your mind you think, I wonder what she would have been like, would her sister be close to her. It's been a long time now, eighteen years have passed by.

Life moves on, we grow stronger as a family. Just standing back watching your children grow, participating in their young lives. Doing the Mom thing, making sure they are fed. If they need anything, love, a hug, a kiss. Giving them the life I wanted growing up. Keeping their lives stable, being there for them when they needed me. I loved the Elementary school years, kindergarten, first grade up to 6th grade was even nice. Then the hormones kick in, I have to laugh at this one. You all know the time when Moms don't know anything. But we do. How many times have we heard, Gosh Mom, if we only knew. We just try to protect them from harm. They will get hurt, we are there to pick them up. It is amazing what a Band-Aid could do, back when they were little.

Now as a Mom I am seeing good things. My Family has grown, both are married. It was amazing to see them happy, their lives grew. From babies to adolescents, teenager, to adults. They will still be kids to me, still learning life's lessons. I am still here for them if they need me, even if they don't, I am there. I have to often remind myself - hey they are grown now. Life doesn't get any better, until one day I may become a grandma.

Going through the MS thing, wasn't easy on them. Not easy today with the possibility of one of my own going through the process of finding out if he has MS. Stay positive is what I have tried to do, at times it is hard. I am not prefect, I do cry, I do break down. I am slower, at times Mom has to rest. But, I am still young, my heart is with my family. I am a Mom, but I am also a best friend. Just think when I have the chance of having a grandchild, watch out. Spoil them rotten and give them back will be my motto.

To all the Mothers, I wish happiness, many memories to share. Happy Mother's Day to all of you who share this same bond with me.

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