There is a verse in the Bible that comes to my mind that
cautions people about making plans for ‘Tomorrow’.
"Do not make plans for tomorrow for you do not know what
tomorrow may bring"
That particular verse is not in my mind for any
wonderful, Spiritual revelation I’m afraid, but rather because of the ups
and downs of MS.
I have been diagnosed with the ‘Continuous Progressive’
form of the disease. As such, there is no treatment program, including all
of the current Pharmaceutical helps currently available. For most of the
last 18 years, since I have been diagnosed, the name pretty well fits the
experience. Lately however, I am experiencing large swings in strength and
ability, almost on a day to day basis. (Now you understand why I am not
making plans for tomorrow without having ‘Plan "B"’ in place at all times
now.) I am seeing my Neurologist in a couple of weeks and shall discuss this
with him. Like always, I expect him to listen, wisely, and offer little
comment or hope.
There are a few things that I am planning on for tomorrow
and one of them is that I will continue to deal with MS, in all of the
various ways it influences my life. I have never met anyone who got better
from MS. Some are fortunate and are in remittance for a time and I am glad
for them, of course. You still deal with the Specter of MS nearby however,
even if in remission.
I am not unduly upset about this, it is simply the way it
is for me and there is little I can do about the physical aspects of this
disease, but, I do (and must) try to maintain a positive attitude within. It
hurts me to see those who love me pained for me and all of that, but I will
somehow continue to ‘Muddle through’ and not fall to despair. I still have
my mind left to me, many helps and conveniences, and loving, caring people
all around me. I am even getting to know the local Firemen on a first name
basis because they are so frequently here to help me when I fall or need
assistance. So you see how very fortunate I am. (Bet you never thought of
Now I am not just ‘Whistling in the Dark’, even though it
may seem that way to anyone who may have bothered to read this. If you are
reading this and have MS you know how true this is. If you do not have such
an illness then it is likely to be so much dribble.
I should like to explain a bit more, if I may, (This is
going to be longer than I first thought!) Those who sometimes read my
offerings know I am a person of Faith. Here is something that helps my faith
to endure. It is a verse in the Bible found in II Corinthians, chapter 4,
verses 17 &18. It says this, and I paraphrase: "For our affliction is
just for a moment and it works for us in this way; it shall bring us to a
great and wonderful place of glory. So we do not look on the things that are
seen but on things that are not seen. The things that are seen are temporal
and are passing, but the things that cannot be seen are eternal."
Can you see now why I do not despair? It is not because
my illness is less than yours, but because I know it to be of short
duration, for I shall be free of it for all eternity. Of course I get down
and discouraged at times, who among us would not? (Yogi says, "It ain’t over
until it’s over!") It is never to be ‘Over’ for all who are filled with such
a hope because of their faith in Jesus Christ and the Bible. There you have
it. I believe the ‘Best is yet to come’ so very completely that I look
forward to my ‘promotion’ with the greatest anticipation. This is why the
Bible urges us to "Think of these things" because such thoughts free
us from despair. How I would like to correspond with someone who wants to be
‘Happy in life’s Compost Pile,’
along with me.
Always remember: God always loves you.
Have a wonderful forever with me!
Lazarus, Feb. 2008